Thoughts on why we're here

So one of my biggest issues is the constant internal religious debate that I have. Last night I came up with a theory, and figured I'd write it down and reflect back on it later.

Its based on the questions; Who is God? and What is our purpose for being?
So the way I consider it is, God is this ultimate being with two sides - good and evil. God's purpose for us, is the evolution of humanity toward good. So think of your baser instincts and desires. They tend to be kinda evil, right? I mean the root of what we are holds all our vices, whether its sex, drugs, violence, lying or some combination of those (or other) vices - the root of who we are, is evil. God's purpose for us, is the ability to evolve beyond that tendency to commit evil.

The world's major religions tend to support this view, consider that the things world religions say are bad, and the things they suggest we should strive for - tend to be largely consistent around the world.

Anyone who happens to stumble across this - I'd love to hear your perspective.

Blogging - a great way to procrastinate

So here I am writing in my blog (can I really call this a blog? Its more a meandering document of my random thoughts than a blog... speaking of meandering). Where was I... Oh. Right. Procrastinating. Huge presentation to do at noon. Its now midnight, and I've got miles to go before I ... (yawn) present...

{That's me on painting duty. I was painting my little girl's room (light purple & darker purple, with a Dora border. Much fun.
Learnt today that you can get motion sickness on a train by sitting opposite to the direction said train is moving in. Judith (Go train pal) suffers from this. Solution? Sit in the same direction that the train is moving in. Bizarre.

Is Mayonnaise a Condiment?

Went through my mind as I walked up the condiments aisle of my neighbourhood Fortino's. Now I didn't research the answer to that question, but I did find Mayo in that aisle, which really is answer enough for me. Well, back to reviewing AD's strategy paper.

Business Ideas

Had lunch with CF at Il Fornello's on King St. today. She's such a nice lady, if only she didn't spit when she talked. I'm sure I wound up consuming a little something extra in both my lunch & my water. Oh well, take the good with the bad, I guess.

Anyhow, she is such a great source of info. For example, today she told me all about the difference between DB & DC pension plans, and why DC plans are bad. Great info to know before you jump ship for another company which offers you a better base but crappy pension.

So for a while I've been mulling over the idea of starting an online diary / journal site as a business, supported by ad revenue - replacing private paper diaries. I thought it was a great idea, and figured no one was really doing this. I figured all the hype was on blogs, & blogs alone. Imagine my surprise when I did a Yahoo search & found a whack of online diary sites! I shouldn't have been surprised, you say? Well, you're probably right, but I was anyhow. Now I'm back to square one for business ideas.

Some of the stuff I've thought about includes a targeted blog / diary site for people of caribbean / african descent, a general diary site (which I'll now have to strike off my list of ideas) , home video editing, business consulting, and a black history research site... I'll mull the idea over some more... See where I net out...

Rough day @ the office

Had a really shitty day at work. DC chewed me out in front of one of our project teams, including one of my employees. Now I don't mind getting ragged on when I deserve it, but this guy just seems to look for chances to make people feel as small as possible. He's such a fucking moron. Anyhow, it inspired me to come home and job hunt.

Key to success "know thyself". So here's another shot at figuring myself out.

How well do I know myself? Hmmm... Not that well I don't think... Let's see. I am creative to some degree... Totally bipolar - Ranging from really hyper to totally boring, with a subdued sneaky sense of humour in between... I'm a bad communicator - but well spoken. How's that for a shitty combination. I come across as arrogant when I'm speaking to people - but don't mean to be. I've tried hard to change this but so far I've only succeeded in becoming paranoid whenever I talk to anyone! (and the last think I need is to be MORE paranoid!). That's another character trait, by the way. I have a tough time pulling my head out of the day to day to allow me to focus on strategy, but I think I'm decent at that. Decent presenter, except for that arrogance thing when I speak. Very motivated. Assertive (sometimes to a fault). A bit of a propeller head, with a strong understanding of technology - but able to dumb it down. Great with delivering web based functionality (need some work on the web marketing concepts, practices and programs though). Fairly flexible / adaptable. Pretty independent (to a fault sometimes!).

Anyhow, enough of that. See those two little angels in this post? They make all of the crap worthwhile.

Minivan Shopping

A while since my last post... The lil' guy's growing like a weed! With 2 kids, I'm finding that we've outgrown our Buick, and am now shopping for a minivan.

Never thought I'd go that route, but I'll come back to that. Now, my father in law is a GM employee, so gets decent discounts on GM vehicles. But I've always been partial to imports myself. So I'm now debating if, even with the GM discount, a GM minivan will be a worthwhile value with similar options compared to a much higher priced Honday Odyssey or Toyota Sienna... Decisions decisions...

I'm thinking that the GM is the better deal. Discount + better financing rate = done deal.